Thursday, October 07, 2004
and who said being e youngest is e best...*neh*....it sucks being e youngest...you have no say in e family at all...i'm 18?...right...like it makes a difference whether im 18 or 12...youngest means forever young..immature...childish...extra...no one to talk to..other then your friends...being ordered ard..well wat else?...anyone wanna add on to my list....my life cant be any better sometimes...seriously....like all of them can even be bothered about me....well just as long as im not cheap.slutty.stupid enough...they cant really be bothered...i don't want to do what i use to do...coz i know it will upset sme of them...it just seem childish getting attention in that way...but one day....smthg will just happen....just wait....if this continues....
Lots of Love 9:58 PM;
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
hmmz..jus finished doing e blogskin for him...so proud of myself..lolx~..guess its sme what simple and sme how similar....will do with these 2 blogskins for now...nthg much i guess....my attitude worked its way up again today...mmz...not gd..not at all....but i jus cldnt take it in e end...oh well....study hard my friends!!!good luck fo all your exams!!!~.
sorry....
daniel bedingfield - If you're not the one
Lots of Love 11:39 PM;
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
got this from a book...called 'PS,ILove You'
'Finding someone you love and who loves you back is a wonderful,wonderful feeling. But finding a true soul mate s an even
better feeling. A soul mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no others will be there for you for ever,no matter what...and a bond like that will never die.'
hmmz...i dont like to have lil' conversations and in the end i end up feeling all helpless and lost....but i dont have a choice do i??...or do i have a choice..but forcing myself not to face it...im always thinking negatively nowadays...yet positively to cheat myself out of it.....what ever it is....im jus feeling worst....i really do want to have a good talk....it just isnt the right time always...or shld i say nowadays...im seriously starting to ponder....i really dont know.......i need u to help me....really.....i dont know if u can feel that....but i really do need your help....
insecure...lost...helpless...sick...tired...
happy nv seem to be in my dictionary these days...at least at times..
Lots of Love 10:23 PM;
Monday, October 04, 2004
gotta get started....gotta get started.....let's get it started!!!`....im going mad....i hate exams...but i hate the holidays even more.....im weird....oh yea....
im still missing out on you...
Lots of Love 9:16 PM;
Sunday, October 03, 2004
it feels good to b crying while u bathe...u wun know how wet ur face will b stained with the tears...you will never know wat is the drop of water that sliding down ur face...it feels great to me....at least i know it..and not feel it....coz i hate to cry...and im nv able to stop myself..it comes at e most inappropriate timings...yea..call me a crybaby for all u lyk...i hate to b shouted at in e face..who likes...i hate to b ordered around like a maid....who likes....but i just have to do it.....
have been thinking a lot for e whole day today..about the friends that i've missing out for e past years...about me taking another course when im done with poly...about life....about being grateful to smeone who's once help u...about everything that comes across my mind....its jus about when u starting listening to wat people are actually talking about....and understaning what it really means....oh well..thats all i got to say for now....
i think im missing out on you...
Lots of Love 10:24 PM;
apparently sleeping is becoming a prob for me...again.......think im going to get myself tired so that i can have a peaceful slp....
i have yet to start studying..too lazy..hmmz..i better get on with it soon...alot of stuffs to study...haiz....not really looking forwards to the holidays...coz i know i wld sure b forced to go some where again...which i totally do not want to go this time....why cant they just let me stay in sgp and work or smthg....i mean if u want to go then get sme frens to go with u or smthg....its not like i can do alot of things if i go over there...i know im selfish....but who cares abt my feelings....hell no one cares.....f*** it.....
i just want to go and watch my movie tmr.....i hope everyone can make it..then it will be fun..take care peeps~...ciaoz...time to get down to some serious washing...AGAIN...*evil grinz*..
Lots of Love 11:55 AM;
'All you need to start an asylum is to have an empty room and the right kind of people'
Lots of Love 1:24 AM;