Saturday, June 11, 2005
i hate myself....why can't i just do it....why am i always thinking so much...why should it bother me that he does send e same msges he used to send...why should i bother that he doesn't seem to acknoledge that i'm in his life anymore....why am i even thinking through all these..until nxt sem and when we graduate.....why is there so many things going through my mind....why am i just crying and crying.....why can't i have some peaceful sleep like any others.....why can't i fall back asleep anymore....why does it hurt so badly!!!!!!!!!!......why do i feel like he likes smeone else...why did i fall in love with you and caused myself to be in this pit....why am i even born in this world....why is it that nowadays im becoming the least important thing in the world.....why am i feeling that i'm not exsisting anymore...is it because i havent been giving you enough support....enough time.....enough freedom....why am i feeling so jealous of everything....mayb coz i dun seem to exist anymore...maybe i'm just another stupid idiot....i guess...what i've been doing caused him to become like that.......i hurt my ownself.....im just too selfish.....i need smeone to help me.......everything in my life is dying....sucks.....everything's seeping away.....why.....why...do i really deserve all these.....maybe i really do....i hope that later when i'm out i'll really be able to enjoy...and hope things will be back to the same....and everything will go away....i dun need a break....i just need him...but he doesnt need me anymore....right?
Lots of Love 8:26 AM;