Tuesday, October 03, 2006
what happened to our dinner this week girls??
Lots of Love 11:03 PM;
work's ok i guess..at least it keeps me busy and i won't be having to find things to do. well, it's only 2 days but there's one thing i like to do. and i look forward to. which is to fax documents!!!! hahahaha..i know it sounds like a..what a ----------------- kind of job. but i enjoy it, coz i dun hvae to keep facing the computer and staring at all those numbers and names and i get to walk and stand around..my department pple are nice (: all the bosses are nice (coz i think im the lowest "ranking" employee in that department)..haha..
but one thing i dont like is going for lunch. past 2 days i havent eaten alone, my nice lady boss has been eating with me. but she eats like damn fast cause i guess theres a lot of work to do. is just that i feel so lonely. i hate to be alone. i mean who doesn't..
i just don't like to be alone. even when my mum's not around and i'm home alone i hate it too. i know all about eh freedom and what not. yes it's true, been there done that.. but nothing still beats the company of someone to accompany you.
that's why i miss him so much, cause he came into my life and accompanied me for the past 3 years whenever i felt down or lonely. i guess i was never that much independent. in pri & sec sch i din feel the need for someone to accompany me(& i also din have any..) i guess cause i wasn't really much of a notice thus in the not so outgoing and 'lot of friends' kind of thing..something along that line..my english is getting worse.. i don't know how to explain.. but im glad i still have a few of my gfs after so much "political" things of sec sch & whatnot. it's kinda dumb, but everyone will have their piece of it..
oh well, life's life.. i hope next time i work because i want to and not because i have to.it's really a dread having to work because you have to and not of wanting it.. it's not even choose-able.or whatever that word is. jeremy knows about my wanting to have a 'chooseable relationship' with my future job, so that means he said he will have to work harder. so i said ok, then i rather not have that, but for now, i still pray for the best of both worlds.
my darling's company & a job that i love. (
i think the 2nd one will be quite difficult, but i'll try.)
Lots of Love 10:11 PM;